My Story Page 74: Nature

“What’s our real nature…as human beings basically?” – she felt like going still deeper into it.

“I think exactly what we are doing right now!” – my body leaned nearer over hers.

She laughed aloud.

“No, I am serious.” – I said.

“Really?” – her breath was hitting my lips.

“Yes. We are humans. We are not animals any more. We have a brain, which is the ultimate source of human joy. And human joy is different from animal joy.” – I was sensing every single word of what I was speaking.

“You mean to say, our brain is our nature?” – her eyes widened a little more than before.

“Only if we let it work independently…on its own!” – my eyes were enjoying the widening of her eyes.

“Do we ever stop it?” – she went a bit puzzled.

“Our mind does, always.” – I stated as a matter of fact, as it was to my sensitivity.

“Is mind different from brain?” – she went interested.

“Rather opposite…180 degrees!” – I smiled.

“Is mind not our nature?” – her curiosity was increasing.

“Not the least! It’s only a mapping of our past thought structure, which we keep intact in our psyche. And then we tend to locate every new sensation somewhere or the other within this old pattern of thoughts forcibly and thus kill its spirit of being something unique to THIS moment of perception.” – I was perceiving her with my full intensity.

She said NOT a word and kept looking at me with her mouth wide open. I felt like hugging her tight and kissing her with all my might.

“Like right now I am feeling like hugging and kissing you wild like an animal, but that’s only what my body knows to do… and it has come to know it from its past animal experience that its mind has given to it.” – I felt much relieved after having uttered these words.

“And your brain has refused to listen to your mind?” – with her expressions, by taking her tongue out, she was trying to excite my animal instincts naughtily.

“Yes, because it’s wanting to search our true nature…yours and mine! And it is ready to face the biggest adrenalin challenge for its sake.” – I ALMOST hugged her without touching her body even at one single point.

She followed suit.

Our bodies went charged with the highest voltage of sexual energy but we wouldn’t let it discharge.

And the bodies went dancing on their own in beat with each other in their wildest but the most disciplined maneuvers.

It was the dance of energy that our bodies had become charged with, and we weren’t letting them discharged!

It was the dance of Shiva!

It was the dance of Shakti!

It was the dance of Shiva and Shakti!

It was our nature!

It was our energetic self!

Rather it was energy as such.

Or was it nature itself at its purest?